There was a name for the lock on
the door that didn’t allow you to
come running after me; there was
a name for the soles of my shoes
that kept me moving forward (even
if slowly), and I think that name was
‘intervention’ or ‘rescue’. I didn’t see
it then, and I can only almost see it
now, but we were a car crash. I
think I only thought it was love
because everyone had told me love
hurts and you hurt the worst I’d ever
felt. I think you’d want to know that
I’ve felt actual love now, and it’s
scarier than your rough hands and
it’s more exciting than the rules we
broke and it only hurts when I’m
afraid I’m going to lose it.
15 messages I almost sentthoseconstellations)
HAHAHA OH MY GOD I AM BLOWN Away this is exactly like my words holy hell the accuracy this this this this(via ruptured-tides)
1. What. The. Hell. Was. That.
2. Why the fuck would you tell me you loved me when you didn’t mean it? You don’t understand how badly that messed me up
3. I’m glad you left because you need professional help, more than I could ever provide
4. Stop torturing me with your subtle references to our ugly past and your wonderful present (without me) and your seemingly bright future (also without me)
5. I feel numb and it’s your fault
6. I don’t know if you’re purposely trying to light me on fire or if you actually have no idea how pissed off you’re making me
7. I’m not jealous of your shiny new toy, have fun with her. She’ll probably give you exactly what you want, hope her price was cheap
8. Hey did you know I’ve been writing about you?
9. I listened to our song today and god my chest tightened with every note and my eyes burned like coals but I thanked hell for finally letting me feel something besides numbness for the first time in months
10. We’re still weird we’re still weird we’re still weird why why why why why
11. Do you ever miss me or am I just blindly hoping that you do? I wish I could read your mind. It seems to be written in Braille and I can’t fucking touch you to figure it out
12. I needed you and you left me and I know I told you that I was fine and that I wasn’t even sad about it but that was a total lie. You’re not the only one that’s good at spitting them out
13. Were you jealous when you saw me with him? Because you had no right to be
14. I thought I was okay being friends with you but all I ever want to do is either kiss you on the mouth or punch you in the same place
15. Maybe I still have feelings for you but I don’t know what they are. Do you?
It’s my birthday and after 15 minutes I’m crying because I wanna go back to a year ago when I was home
im in one of those periods in my life where i cant focus on anything i cant finish an assignment i cant listen to one song for more than 5 seconds i cant sit through a tv show episode i cant finish a book i cant write a story
all i can do is stare blankly at the wall and wish i had something to do but everything i could do or want to do is just supremely unsatisfying
YES HOLY MOTHER FUCK YES.
Come up behind me while I’m making dinner.
Wake me up in the middle of the night to tell me about your dream.
Tell me if I cook something gross so I never make it again.
Laugh with me when I mess up my words.
Know that my bobby pins are everywhere, all the time. I’m sorry.
Stay in your underwear with me all day on a Saturday once in a while.